The disappointing feel from yesterday remained. Though i have tried my best to maintain the peace within myself. My husband is assuring of a life long relation and happiness and i am sure he isnt lying. But the pain and sadness of losing a dear one to his own selfish ego does keep me pricking at times which keeps me restricted to my husbands concern too. A close someone broke all ties with me trying to scare me of embarrassment. I have stopped caring long back. I never tried to explain my dilemma and he never tried to understand my silence. concern if you call it, i do miss him but his ego and my self respect is the biggest barrier.
I hope he understands the story at my end one day without any of his selfish reasons. We don't know where we went wrong but if trying to understand someone else troubles is a crime, we are criminal. If not showing off our material possessions is wrong we are fools for keeping our self grounded. If silently punishing ownself for your meaningless banters was wrong, yes we are wrong and we will live with it. Hoping you would not have to bend down to this low regretting your sins.
Anyways coming back to today. A nice cloudy day and still a whole day remains behind. Finished with my breakfast and sat down to start learning for my own new personal venture.But started over here..
well will come back again...time to call mum...
Finally back after a long day. Every thing went almost fine with the absence of trouble away from the house. My mind was calm so was the house. later during dinner again she tried to prick me with her usual weapons of insensitivity. Taking her words as random banter from a mental patient I ignore, restoring the little moment of anger and restlessness. my husband is with me and someday hopefully I would be able to get my revenge for all her irrespective words.
ANOTHER USUAL DAY NO SADNESS
HQ - 56%
CL- 70%
STRESS- 15%
RELATION-78 %
I hope he understands the story at my end one day without any of his selfish reasons. We don't know where we went wrong but if trying to understand someone else troubles is a crime, we are criminal. If not showing off our material possessions is wrong we are fools for keeping our self grounded. If silently punishing ownself for your meaningless banters was wrong, yes we are wrong and we will live with it. Hoping you would not have to bend down to this low regretting your sins.
Anyways coming back to today. A nice cloudy day and still a whole day remains behind. Finished with my breakfast and sat down to start learning for my own new personal venture.But started over here..
well will come back again...time to call mum...
Finally back after a long day. Every thing went almost fine with the absence of trouble away from the house. My mind was calm so was the house. later during dinner again she tried to prick me with her usual weapons of insensitivity. Taking her words as random banter from a mental patient I ignore, restoring the little moment of anger and restlessness. my husband is with me and someday hopefully I would be able to get my revenge for all her irrespective words.
ANOTHER USUAL DAY NO SADNESS
HQ - 56%
CL- 70%
STRESS- 15%
RELATION-78 %
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